Every 31st of December comes with a disappointment of not getting rich, not losing weight, and not having what I always wanted to buy. The last years felt different. It wasn't the bags I didn't buy that disappointed me, but the things I didn't do that disappointed me. So instead of a list of the things I want to have, it's a list of feelings I want to feel. I want to feel alive—fully alive and live. Last year was one of the best years for me. People were saying it was a rough